Night - Afterthough #4

Hey there.. Yep, recently I've been updated my blog a lot.

I am who I am
Not what you think I am
Not who you want me to be
I am me
- Brigitte nicole

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Level of Boredom

Hi..
Today's weather is not really good tbh. It was raining since morning and continuing with cloudy. It is still cloudy but at least not as cloudy as before.
Here is my thought today.

Have you ever feel sick about your routine? That you really wish that you have something else outside your routine? Yes, I feel that today. I feel that I have the same routine every working days. The some old routine again and again days by days.

Smiling necessary or not

Hi...
I have something to tell you.. It's about smiling. Lately I've begin to moody. I don't know why. But it seems my mood swings easily. I don't mean to become a moody person or else.. However have you ever tired to smile? It's not because you are sad or something else happened. You just tired of smiling. It seems like you fake it a whole time.

Yep, that's what I fell right now.
In mean time, I'm just sick of smiling a whole day. Trust me, It's not that I have a bad day or else.
Actually, this is my default face...
Although, indeed I have a problem and want to pretend that's everything is okay. Why? Why do I need to pretend to be okay? Since sometime I have a lot of things to think that I could not even know what is the matter with me that is the reason that I do not like to smiling.

Lately so many things that I have to re-think, especially for this new year new me (hahaha kidding). But yeah, I just need to re-think about many things.
I hope this year will be a good year for all of us..

See you..

2018 - closure

Well,
Hello 2019...

Today I want to talk about my 2018..

My 2018 was not good as I expecting. I really hope many things could happen in 2018.
There were so many things left unsaid and undone. There were also on the contrary. There were so many things that I wished that I did not said or do.

There were so many things that I really wish that I did before 2018 ended. I really wish I could travel more, be more grateful, be more honest about what I felt, be more hard working than I used to be, be more active about what I wanted to, and etc. <well, I could not list one by one though>

But life must go on. I could not regret for the things I've done or undone. So, lets hope, do, and pray the best for 2019.

Ps:
You may notice that I have been writing all of my post in English. The truth is sometimes I could not express my self in proper Bahasa that is why I prefer posting in English. Yes, indeed I am a coward.